Do you ever feel disgusted with yourself? - Rape Board

Kami · 01-15-2008, 10:56 AM

I've been turned on by the thought of rape since I was very young, before I even started masturbating. My first memory is when this TV program was on where an army woman got gang raped, which I saw by accident when walking into the living room. My mother told me it was horrible and whatever else, making me feel awful for being excited by such a thing.

As I've got older and gained access to the internet, my rape fetish has gotten stronger thanks to how easy it is to get porn. I have at times done things like my delete my entire porn collection out of feelings of disgust, later simply making a new one... I've stopped caring quite so much nowadays, though.

I'd never actually rape for real since, unlike the animals who do so, I care enough to know it fucks up lives. However, knowing that doesn't stop me thinking about how sick my mind must be for me to be turned on by rape when others are sickened by the thought of it.

Has anyone else ever felt the same way?

01-15-2008, 10:56 AM	#1
Kami Junior Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Posts: 4 Reputation: 10	Do you ever feel disgusted with yourself? I've been turned on by the thought of rape since I was very young, before I even started masturbating. My first memory is when this TV program was on where an army woman got gang raped, which I saw by accident when walking into the living room. My mother told me it was horrible and whatever else, making me feel awful for being excited by such a thing. As I've got older and gained access to the internet, my rape fetish has gotten stronger thanks to how easy it is to get porn. I have at times done things like my delete my entire porn collection out of feelings of disgust, later simply making a new one... I've stopped caring quite so much nowadays, though. I'd never actually rape for real since, unlike the animals who do so, I care enough to know it fucks up lives. However, knowing that doesn't stop me thinking about how sick my mind must be for me to be turned on by rape when others are sickened by the thought of it. Has anyone else ever felt the same way?