I'm definitely a masochist, but I could never understand the pain aspect of this until I experienced it for real. Yet even now, I still find it hard to explain this to someone else who doesn't share the same feelings.
For me, I believe it took being with real Sadists for me to discover how strong this is. We learn to channel that pain into arousal and a heightened state of mind. To bear even extreme pain for another person's satisfaction fills me with both excitement and pride. And as I learned to transcend the painful sensation of the moment, I started to feel elation and joy.
Those are the most liberating experiences I've ever known.
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Fear of getting what you want is as powerful as the fear of never getting it.
Last edited by Sephy; 04-06-2008 at 12:48 PM.
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