Patience is a virtue

[pussytaker]

PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE


You know, through my long and twisted journey of perverse sex, watching it, masturbating to it, orgasming from it, I realize I have been very selfish. I watch only the parts, look at only a specific picture, and a few jerks later I am spewing cum all over my crotch. Plots, subterfuge, things leading up, the pumping and grinding, the lick of lips or sway of tits that start it – my theory was why the fuck WAIT? Get to the good stuff, the hot stuff, the cum shooting stuff.

And over time and intense development with this quick scan method, I can come in a few jerks even when the act is not on screen. I can come from a button being undone, or panties being slipped off. I can come just as intensely as I did when I watch the act.

So it is good that I am a virgin. It is good no poor real flesh and blood girl has to sit in my breath range, in the passenger seat of my car, across a restaurant table. I am too horny. Too sexualized, desensitized, and charged. It is good that I have the control and the knowledge and the discipline to keep pure while my mind rots, putrefies, and drips out my nose in black jellied drops.

For bereft of discipline, control, knowledge and FORETHOUGHT, something I greatly value, I would be helpless. Motivated by all the wild and crazy fucking I see on the internet, I couldn't keep my hands off the poor honey or my cock in my pants. And the embarrassment continues – if I could wait for the real bedroom, I would come way the fuck too soon. I would be a laughingstock, the king of the sexual intercourse fail. The reason would be quite simple – I am used to sex and release on my terms, in carefully controlled conditions with previously or consciously chosen stimuli. In the unknown frontier of a real girl's bedroom, I would be helpless, skill-less, useless. Which is why real girls are inferior to real porn. When you are so desensitized as I am – I have spent years behind a computer with an internet connection. Years – hell – DECADES. I have seen a lot of porn and I have cum a lot of times. Besides that – the turn-ons in a real one on one real girl fuck session would not be there. My cock gets hard from (in random order of importance and merit – (partially) – rape scenes, incest, lesbians, bestiality, and the wild and crazy endless frontiers of animated porn – hentai.

How could a real girl, all by herself, get my cock to stand up? Most of my turn-ons include the participation of an unknown element – which would require planning and spying on her part – much spying - like hacking my hard drive to learn what my turn ons ARE. Like I am going to tell a girl “I would LOVE to see you get raped and crying. It makes me shoot ropes like nothing else” Not on your life. And that example is piss poor. I am woman talk, seduction and charm illiterate. There are many reasons I am a virgin. But I am not the repressed and mentally damaged virgin that plots evil in secret and does it to the surprise of everyone. I would never be a willing engine or performer of evil – but I accept its existence and are grateful for the real repressed and frustrated and enraged virgins who provide the endless streams of downloadable content that is my harem of hookers, my sexual fantasy paradise.

I have said this before. I mean it. I am grateful. Evil and good naturally balance each other out, and no one can say they do not dabble in darkness. There are only different degrees.

In my way I am trying to make up for it. Not to the real shameless disease infested sluts whom I would never touch with a 500 ft pole, but to myself. I am not getting the full monty if I do not explore and enjoy the plots of my pornos. If I just use them like cheap whores for easily expended thrills, why do the take up so many gigabytes? I must fully appreciate them. I am trying to rectify. To watch with interest and patience every bounce of ass, flick of eyelash, swing of nipple and lick of ball. Every gaping asshole and dripping creampie is a chapter not fully read, not fully appreciated. This is the only thanks or meet in the middle you will get from me sluts, so take it for what it is. Something that serves only myself.

God, I AM selfish.

I am the greatest enemy of the female mind. The man that is turned on not by her, but the endless fantasy panoramas of what she can be. The man excited about his next orgasm, not the next tart pussy he spears. The man disgusted with sluttery in all its forms but the virtual. Virtual is so appealing. All you do is look and jerk and breathe and come. No diseases. No repercussions. No pregnancies. No scandals. No blackmail. No misfires or embarrassments. Nothing but simple, pure, purging release. It is intensely personal and private for me, and I share this only through the mask of the anonymous poster. In conclusion, the real modern woman would have no use for me, and I in equal turn, have no use for them. Only the products of their filthy shameless exploits. Keep doing it stupid sluts. Your indiscretions are the nutrient rich blood this leech on the ass of society thrives on. Shamelessly.

So I have no patience. Well, there are worse things to not have.

PUSSY TAKER

[bruisedporcelain]

Well ..... that was somewhat interesting to read. Thank you for the insight into your deviant mind.