An Older Rough Brother (18 me 20 him ages)

[Lindseysmiles]

Before my brother went on a trip, he left me a note saying that he had feeling for me and wanted to date me. He told me that no other girl has ever made him happy and he knows that I never dated so that he knows that i have not yet found someone to love. I know that he liked to really be in charge of his other girlfriends and that he liked to be rough. I struggle with it while he is away, wanting him to be happy but scared to date my brother. For the "rape" part is is more in him convincing me that I need to give him sex and even allow it to be rough to know that I raelly love him. In the end, I decide to send him an email ... if you want to roleplay, please reply to my private message or here as my brother...

Dear Bryan,

I got your note that you left for me before you went away.* I was quite shocked to say the least, but you probably know that.* I am sorry to hear that your other relationships did not work out and that anyone else was able to make you happy.* To be honest, I am not sure how you think I can make you happy ... I have always been your loyal and loving, yet bratty sister!* Remember how I used to tell on you for harassing me ALL THE TIME!! LoL... Those were good times, or maybe they weren't, at least not for you! =)* How many times did you get grounded?* Sorry I am just trying to be funny because I am nervous.* I am replying to a question that I never thought I would have to answer.* You basically poured your heart out in the note and I promise I will never tell anyone what you said.* It is between you and me and has to always stay that way, but you know that.* And that brings me to the point... you and me.*

I love you and I so want you to be happy and I want to help you be happy.* I do not know if I will be a good girlfriend, I am not even sure I was a good sister, but I am willing to trust you with my heart with the hopes that you will care for it as much as I will care for yours.* I hope you can accept that this will take some real getting used to for me.* You (and do not deny this) like to be REAL bossy.* I have to learn to respect that and accept that.* I have to learn to trust you even though I can't tattle on you anymore (lol).* I also want to still be your sister.* I know that will make things weirder, especially for me, but I hope you can accept that.* Can you accept that this will be hard for me?* Can you accept that while I will do whatever is needed to help make you happy, much of it will be uncomfortable for me at first.* I am willing to work through that if you are willing to not be turned off or away by it.*

So if all is good, where do we go from here?* How do we keep it to ourselves?* How do I respect your bossiness when mom and dad are around or when we are at home?* Where do we even start?* I may have answered your questions, but there are so many more swirling in my mind right now.

Love,
Lindsey