That 'i'm not alone' moment - Rape Board

GOATBOY · 10-28-2007, 03:25 PM

angel of death just made me think of this.

when was your 'I'm not alone moment'? Some of us knew they were into this stuff before we ever knew someone else could be. I know some of you found out they liked this stuff when they decided to give it a go, in that case when was that?

I remember being a young kid and always finding the bondage scenes on TV exciting, and had many fantasies about kidnapped ladies. Then it continued into my teenage years as I started to find it erotic, and many pretty ladies in my school where in my 'special daydreams'. And I did feel like a freak, thought I was alone, and swore to myself to keep it a secret till the day I died no matter how much I wanted to do that stuff with future girlfriends/wives. I had some idea that people were into things like spanking and handcuffs, but I seriously thought I was unique.

Then one day, I was 14, I was up london with two friends and decided that we should take a risk and go into a sex shop. We got in with no trouble and we then went to look around, then suddenly one friend said 'look at that, thats so sick'. I looked where he pointed and saw a mag where the cover girl was tied and gagged. It was the biggest weight off my shoulders ever. I off course replied with 'oh yeah, that horrible', but he had no idea what was going on in my head.

Angel Of Death · 10-28-2007, 04:06 PM

um....I`d have to say the 1st time I kind of had a thing for an animal was when I was 12. I remember the episode of the tom green show on MTV (This was back in 2000) and tom green was at a barn and milked a cow. I found that to be sexy. Then I saw him sucking on the cow`s utter and ever since then i`ve wanted to do that. Thats when I had a preview of what was to come...I`m not ALL the way sure if I have Zoophilia. I dunno, im still kind of confused. I`ve seen zoo porn before with my cousin. I get off loking at animals having sex with humans. Women playing with Horse`s penises is cool and seeing a dog screw a girl is ADORABLE.

10-28-2007, 08:14 PM

well, my whole life, i was intreetsed in rape fantasies and bondage. any movie with a bondage or rape scene, i'd watch them constantly.
i was so embarassed watching them with my family, because i got horny!(but at age 7, i didnt know what my feelings meant).
to be completely and totally honest, i didn't know others were like me until i found this site!>.<

Angel Of Death · 10-28-2007, 10:05 PM

um well I`ve seen a film involiving incest and murder back in 1994. I was a child back then (I`m 19) LOL I started having dreams of rape by 5 and crap so yea I`m messed up

kodavictimm · 10-28-2007, 11:14 PM

I was never molested or anything, no... my rape fantasies grew from knowing that my foot fetish was considered "weird"... so I began to fantasize knocking girls out to fondle or look at their feet, and when I got old enough to know what sex was, well; why have a girl knocked out and stop at her feet? So that was how it got started, I was like 5 or so when I started checking out girls feet; I remember even liking it when my kindergarten teacher would dangle her shoe. And I loved old monster movies where the damsel got caught by the monster, usually fainting and being carried away. Many times they were barefoot too, so it all tied together...

I knew from Detective magazines I read that people did like this kind of stuff but that acting on it was wrong. I knew from tv and movies that there must be people who liked it enough for it to be in the stories. And around the time I was 16 I wandered into a local "Newstand" that had adult material at the b ack. I managed to buy a bondage magazine and I knew... that if this was there, there was more to be had...

Of course it wasn't until the internet that it all got so easily available; where you could actually meet people who thought like you did... and women who wanted to do the things that you wanted to do... if you played your cards right...

Ragman · 10-29-2007, 12:32 AM

My fantasy grew out of old batman re-runs. Seeing batgirl tied up and in the clutches of some villan, that was always my favorite part. Even when I was too young to really know what sex was... i knew there was something exciting about seeing batgirl in some villans clutches. As i grew older I found myself getting frustrated, Not so much thinking my feelings were wrong, but not knowing how to express them. then one magical day.. I discovered the internet... Not only did I find websites for my particular ideas and fantasies.. but thoughts and peopel who had taken it a step further. I hopped on the internet bandwagon and haven't been off since...

Ntense · 10-29-2007, 01:27 AM

After straining through puberty with all of these weird violent ideas that NOBODY was talking about, fast-forward several years later: Senior year in high school. I must have slipped and said *something* to her that spiked a reaction, damned if I remember what 30 years later. Her eyes got all sparkly and she asked ME out on a date. We talked for hours, edging around it at first until we both figured out the other wasn't gonna freak on us. We'd had a couple of classes together in earlier years so we knew each other, but neither of us had shit-all for any reinforcement or approval until that day. Thunderstorm! Fireworks!!

Yup, the general rape theme was on a LOT of movies and TV series, but rape was *not* a topic of conversation in the '70s in middle-class America.

10-29-2007, 03:08 AM

I was introduced to rape fantasy via a mixture of TV or internet, i would not say i was turned on by rape in films initially but it got me interested, with the introduction of the internet i was able to access alot more to explore more of my curosity i stumble across my first rape site by accident when i was a teenager and got hooked from there, not old enough at the time for a credit card i was into yahoo rape groups before the purge.

DorianBlack · 02-14-2011, 11:15 PM

You can't live in Western Society without knowing a large segment of the population is really into the fantasy of rape. The only other heinous crime receiving such attention from the media is murder. And between murder and rape, rape is most often portrayed in an idealized manner. Very few shows on television or movies on DVD or in the theaters show rape as it truly exists outside the mass fantasies of our culture. Very few rape victims are overweight, old, disabled, dirty, or unattractive even if you watch the "true crime" dramas like "Law & Order: SVU."

So the image and fantasy is pretty all encompassing, so that was never my "I'm not alone" moment.

My moment arrived when I realized there were other people out there who were more than titillated by this fantasy. And beyond being turned on, they were willing to talk about it and even act on it. It wasn't really a "we're all brothers and sisters" sort of thing. It was more of a "finally, a place where I can find playmates without all the judgments and crap I normally have to put up with."

NastyJack · 02-15-2011, 07:42 PM

Even as a kid, before I knew what sex was, I would have daydreams where I was some sort of master criminal, and have girl held captive. Later, during my frustrated teenage years, I dreamed of taking what I wanted from the girls who (I was sure) were laughing at me behind my back.

Eventually got a girlfriend in college and started having (vanilla) sex ... still had the nasty fantasies. Then I ended up dating a girl ... well, after we'd been seeing each other for a few weeks, I noticed a copy of "The Joy Of Sex" by her bed (this was late '70s). I started looking through it, noticing some sections were highlighted, others crossed out ... and the section on bondage and dominance was highlighted, circled, underlined, with stars by a couple of paragraphs. We talked about it, and started role-playing, and had some incredible scenes.

We broke up after a few months for other reasons ... but that was what got me started actually role-playing rape fantasies. From then on, I started searching for girlfriends who were into the same thing. Ended up eventually marrying one.

justmetoo · 02-15-2011, 08:00 PM

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Originally Posted by NastyJack

I noticed a copy of "The Joy Of Sex" by her bed (this was late '70s).

Wow. And that was pretty hot reading back then. Very tame compared to today's standards, but back then it was mind boggling.

Fae · 02-16-2011, 04:24 AM

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Originally Posted by DorianBlack

You can't live in Western Society without knowing a large segment of the population is really into the fantasy of rape.

Actually you can. I have these fantasies since I was in my early teens but no one I ever heard ever talked about anything I recognized as close to my fantasies of being raped. I knew people who were into being tied up or spanked but that seems like kind of silly fun to me the way it was described. Rape was only talked about in it's reality which is pretty brutal. I was pretty sheltered growing up too. I was raised sex was just not something to be talked about and I was generally a good girl and didn't ask too many questions past the simple teenage gossip I heard from friends. I got through high school and my first year of college before I knew anyone else had fantasies like this. I actually found out the best way possible. The man I was involved with who eventually became my husband brought it up as something he was into.

Hume L. Yates · 02-16-2011, 09:22 PM

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I noticed a copy of "The Joy Of Sex" by her bed

That sparked a recollection. I was maybe in my mid to late teens when I read the then-best selling book Everything You Wanted To Know About Sex (But were Afraid to Ask), that my older brother had. There was a paragraph about rape fantasies, and it quoted some study. I can't remember the exact statistic, but it said that a large percent of people had rape fantasies, but didn't have any interest in actually performing rape. I already knew that I had plenty of rape fantasies and had no intention of ever committing a sexual assault, so I knew I wasn't some evil monster. But it was a bit comforting to know that I wasn't alone with my fantasies.

RayPistonprowl · 02-16-2011, 09:40 PM

Love the name, Hume L Yates.

My "I'm Not Alone" moment happened aound the early 1990s when I had a kinky girlfriend who enjoyed rough sex all the way up to fantasy rape.

TheSwede · 02-25-2011, 07:15 PM

Well, you could say that I got my "I'm Not Alone" moment when we got an Internet connection in the late 90's. But I think my real moment was when my girlfriend and I discovered that we shared the exact same fantasy. Great moment, and lots of great moments after that.

HoldenW · 03-02-2011, 12:20 AM

Oh god, I was twelve or younger when I knew I liked the idea of being held & forced to do things against my will and vice-versa. Luckily for me I've never lived a life with out internet, but I found out when I was sixteen and then I found this site a year or so after. It was such a big weight off my chest, I honestly felt like a freak and still do to some extent. I still haven't told anyone about this fetish, it was hard enough coming out of the closet in a very open minded city, but this I think would push people over the edge.

Words can't express how happy I am there is a website like this for people to express themselves and for people like us to communicate. Thanks for who ever set it up.

Crimson Guard · 03-03-2011, 04:53 AM

Grew up in the early 80s. Since I saw a woman on tv tied up and struggling. I wish I knew what program it was. My dad was flipping through chamnels and I caught it. Since i didnt k ow what sex was. It was all about the tying up. My 2nd girlfriend ever in5th grade gave me a kinda mini im not alone moment. She suggested we play on the playground a game where i rescue her. She had another friend of hers prwtend to tie her up and gag her. Whrn I came and freed her. Wherever she is now. Bet she is alot of fun. But aside from that i felt i was weird and maybe sick. Alot of guilt. Once i found about sex rape fantasys came naturally. My not alone moment was 92. I got a time magazine in it was how these feminists wanted tp outlaw bondage porn. The article had 3 small picture of magazines. One a blonde on ropeburns magazine. One ugly brunnette on some other cover. And thebest was some gagged woman. Aside from the problem of andrea dworkins ugly mug starinh at me i whacked off to that articlr alot. With less guilt. If they make magazines i cant be the only on. I found out avout here when something awful had and article about it in 06 or 07.

10-28-2007, 03:25 PM	#1
GOATBOY Privileged Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: london uk Posts: 627 Reputation: 4793	That 'i'm not alone' moment angel of death just made me think of this. when was your 'I'm not alone moment'? Some of us knew they were into this stuff before we ever knew someone else could be. I know some of you found out they liked this stuff when they decided to give it a go, in that case when was that? I remember being a young kid and always finding the bondage scenes on TV exciting, and had many fantasies about kidnapped ladies. Then it continued into my teenage years as I started to find it erotic, and many pretty ladies in my school where in my 'special daydreams'. And I did feel like a freak, thought I was alone, and swore to myself to keep it a secret till the day I died no matter how much I wanted to do that stuff with future girlfriends/wives. I had some idea that people were into things like spanking and handcuffs, but I seriously thought I was unique. Then one day, I was 14, I was up london with two friends and decided that we should take a risk and go into a sex shop. We got in with no trouble and we then went to look around, then suddenly one friend said 'look at that, thats so sick'. I looked where he pointed and saw a mag where the cover girl was tied and gagged. It was the biggest weight off my shoulders ever. I off course replied with 'oh yeah, that horrible', but he had no idea what was going on in my head. __________________ HAPPINESS IS A DRY PUSSY

10-28-2007, 11:14 PM	#5
kodavictimm Privileged Member Join Date: Aug 2006 Posts: 502 Reputation: 484	I was never molested or anything, no... my rape fantasies grew from knowing that my foot fetish was considered "weird"... so I began to fantasize knocking girls out to fondle or look at their feet, and when I got old enough to know what sex was, well; why have a girl knocked out and stop at her feet? So that was how it got started, I was like 5 or so when I started checking out girls feet; I remember even liking it when my kindergarten teacher would dangle her shoe. And I loved old monster movies where the damsel got caught by the monster, usually fainting and being carried away. Many times they were barefoot too, so it all tied together... I knew from Detective magazines I read that people did like this kind of stuff but that acting on it was wrong. I knew from tv and movies that there must be people who liked it enough for it to be in the stories. And around the time I was 16 I wandered into a local "Newstand" that had adult material at the b ack. I managed to buy a bondage magazine and I knew... that if this was there, there was more to be had... Of course it wasn't until the internet that it all got so easily available; where you could actually meet people who thought like you did... and women who wanted to do the things that you wanted to do... if you played your cards right... __________________ No, I don't think I will rape you, although you need raping, badly. That's what's wrong with you. You should be raped and often, and by someone who knows how. Last edited by kodavictimm; 10-28-2007 at 11:17 PM.

10-29-2007, 01:27 AM	#7
Ntense Privileged Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: Texass Posts: 688 Reputation: 541	After straining through puberty with all of these weird violent ideas that NOBODY was talking about, fast-forward several years later: Senior year in high school. I must have slipped and said something to her that spiked a reaction, damned if I remember what 30 years later. Her eyes got all sparkly and she asked ME out on a date. We talked for hours, edging around it at first until we both figured out the other wasn't gonna freak on us. We'd had a couple of classes together in earlier years so we knew each other, but neither of us had shit-all for any reinforcement or approval until that day. Thunderstorm! Fireworks!! Yup, the general rape theme was on a LOT of movies and TV series, but rape was not a topic of conversation in the '70s in middle-class America. __________________ Character is what you are in the dark... John Whorfin

03-02-2011, 12:20 AM	#16
HoldenW Member Join Date: Mar 2010 Location: Raincity. Posts: 58 Reputation: 2754	Oh god, I was twelve or younger when I knew I liked the idea of being held & forced to do things against my will and vice-versa. Luckily for me I've never lived a life with out internet, but I found out when I was sixteen and then I found this site a year or so after. It was such a big weight off my chest, I honestly felt like a freak and still do to some extent. I still haven't told anyone about this fetish, it was hard enough coming out of the closet in a very open minded city, but this I think would push people over the edge. Words can't express how happy I am there is a website like this for people to express themselves and for people like us to communicate. Thanks for who ever set it up. __________________ The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed.

10-28-2007, 04:06 PM	#2
Angel Of Death Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Posts: 30 Reputation: 10	um....I`d have to say the 1st time I kind of had a thing for an animal was when I was 12. I remember the episode of the tom green show on MTV (This was back in 2000) and tom green was at a barn and milked a cow. I found that to be sexy. Then I saw him sucking on the cow`s utter and ever since then i`ve wanted to do that. Thats when I had a preview of what was to come...I`m not ALL the way sure if I have Zoophilia. I dunno, im still kind of confused. I`ve seen zoo porn before with my cousin. I get off loking at animals having sex with humans. Women playing with Horse`s penises is cool and seeing a dog screw a girl is ADORABLE.

10-28-2007, 08:14 PM	#3
virginfantasy Guest Posts: n/a	well, my whole life, i was intreetsed in rape fantasies and bondage. any movie with a bondage or rape scene, i'd watch them constantly. i was so embarassed watching them with my family, because i got horny!(but at age 7, i didnt know what my feelings meant). to be completely and totally honest, i didn't know others were like me until i found this site!>.<

10-28-2007, 10:05 PM	#4
Angel Of Death Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Posts: 30 Reputation: 10	um well I`ve seen a film involiving incest and murder back in 1994. I was a child back then (I`m 19) LOL I started having dreams of rape by 5 and crap so yea I`m messed up

10-29-2007, 12:32 AM	#6
Ragman Privileged Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: an alley near you Posts: 2,226 Reputation: 5535	My fantasy grew out of old batman re-runs. Seeing batgirl tied up and in the clutches of some villan, that was always my favorite part. Even when I was too young to really know what sex was... i knew there was something exciting about seeing batgirl in some villans clutches. As i grew older I found myself getting frustrated, Not so much thinking my feelings were wrong, but not knowing how to express them. then one magical day.. I discovered the internet... Not only did I find websites for my particular ideas and fantasies.. but thoughts and peopel who had taken it a step further. I hopped on the internet bandwagon and haven't been off since...

10-29-2007, 03:08 AM	#8
clan_hunter Guest Posts: n/a	I was introduced to rape fantasy via a mixture of TV or internet, i would not say i was turned on by rape in films initially but it got me interested, with the introduction of the internet i was able to access alot more to explore more of my curosity i stumble across my first rape site by accident when i was a teenager and got hooked from there, not old enough at the time for a credit card i was into yahoo rape groups before the purge.

02-14-2011, 11:15 PM	#9
DorianBlack Privileged Member Join Date: Jan 2011 Location: San Francisco, CA, USA Posts: 306 Reputation: 1969	You can't live in Western Society without knowing a large segment of the population is really into the fantasy of rape. The only other heinous crime receiving such attention from the media is murder. And between murder and rape, rape is most often portrayed in an idealized manner. Very few shows on television or movies on DVD or in the theaters show rape as it truly exists outside the mass fantasies of our culture. Very few rape victims are overweight, old, disabled, dirty, or unattractive even if you watch the "true crime" dramas like "Law & Order: SVU." So the image and fantasy is pretty all encompassing, so that was never my "I'm not alone" moment. My moment arrived when I realized there were other people out there who were more than titillated by this fantasy. And beyond being turned on, they were willing to talk about it and even act on it. It wasn't really a "we're all brothers and sisters" sort of thing. It was more of a "finally, a place where I can find playmates without all the judgments and crap I normally have to put up with."

02-15-2011, 07:42 PM	#10
NastyJack Senior Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Kokomo, IN Posts: 113 Reputation: 1779	Even as a kid, before I knew what sex was, I would have daydreams where I was some sort of master criminal, and have girl held captive. Later, during my frustrated teenage years, I dreamed of taking what I wanted from the girls who (I was sure) were laughing at me behind my back. Eventually got a girlfriend in college and started having (vanilla) sex ... still had the nasty fantasies. Then I ended up dating a girl ... well, after we'd been seeing each other for a few weeks, I noticed a copy of "The Joy Of Sex" by her bed (this was late '70s). I started looking through it, noticing some sections were highlighted, others crossed out ... and the section on bondage and dominance was highlighted, circled, underlined, with stars by a couple of paragraphs. We talked about it, and started role-playing, and had some incredible scenes. We broke up after a few months for other reasons ... but that was what got me started actually role-playing rape fantasies. From then on, I started searching for girlfriends who were into the same thing. Ended up eventually marrying one.

02-16-2011, 09:40 PM	#14
RayPistonprowl Banned Join Date: Jan 2011 Location: Right behind you. Posts: 241 Reputation: 1711	Love the name, Hume L Yates. My "I'm Not Alone" moment happened aound the early 1990s when I had a kinky girlfriend who enjoyed rough sex all the way up to fantasy rape.

02-25-2011, 07:15 PM	#15
TheSwede Junior Member Join Date: Oct 2010 Posts: 12 Reputation: 10	Well, you could say that I got my "I'm Not Alone" moment when we got an Internet connection in the late 90's. But I think my real moment was when my girlfriend and I discovered that we shared the exact same fantasy. Great moment, and lots of great moments after that.

03-03-2011, 04:53 AM	#17
Crimson Guard Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Broca Beach Posts: 53 Reputation: 37	Grew up in the early 80s. Since I saw a woman on tv tied up and struggling. I wish I knew what program it was. My dad was flipping through chamnels and I caught it. Since i didnt k ow what sex was. It was all about the tying up. My 2nd girlfriend ever in5th grade gave me a kinda mini im not alone moment. She suggested we play on the playground a game where i rescue her. She had another friend of hers prwtend to tie her up and gag her. Whrn I came and freed her. Wherever she is now. Bet she is alot of fun. But aside from that i felt i was weird and maybe sick. Alot of guilt. Once i found about sex rape fantasys came naturally. My not alone moment was 92. I got a time magazine in it was how these feminists wanted tp outlaw bondage porn. The article had 3 small picture of magazines. One a blonde on ropeburns magazine. One ugly brunnette on some other cover. And thebest was some gagged woman. Aside from the problem of andrea dworkins ugly mug starinh at me i whacked off to that articlr alot. With less guilt. If they make magazines i cant be the only on. I found out avout here when something awful had and article about it in 06 or 07.