As a girl of Japanese origin who's lived in the West since I was a year old, I've encountered some pretty gross racism over the years. One night on the train a white guy actually told me that "little Japs like me" had "a natural urge to serve men" and one of his friends said something about "geisha pussy". The whole group laughed. Nobody else in the carriage even looked at me or at them.
At the time it was horribly disgusting and infuriating, but later I found myself going back to those moments of humiliation and fear when I was touching myself. Now I sometimes imagine a man of a race different to my own saying things like that while violating me. Trying to make me ashamed of who I even am, raping my identity as thoroughly as he's raping my body.
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