I never used to treasure the idea of my virginity. I think somehow I've linked being a virgin to being pure-minded and able to say 'no' very easily to keep herself 'intact', and therefore someone with very little sexual experience and a complete
submissive when it comes to the 'first time' as she will be nervous and won't know what to expect to feel or do, as she'll be forced to submit what she's been treasuring all these years. She's at her rapists mercy and her view on sex from then forth will be tainted by how he fucks her.
Plus, virginity is generally a one-time thing, so if someone was to 'steal' that seal on your innocence it would be more upsetting/frightening (yet exciting) and much more violating. Someone who's had sex will know what to expect (mostly!) to feel as a rapist pushes her down and fucks her, but our indignant virgin will be left completely open to a very memorable first time.
Even if I had that operation to have my hymen re-attached now, it wouldn't match
true virginity as I believe it's as much a physical state as a mental state of purity. Something that happens once, and then it's gone. In most of my fantasies, I put up the bitchy self confident exterior but beneath I'm pure unchartered territory
(and pure terrified!).
I'd imagine for the rapist it's like pissing in the holy water - naughty, but
oh so satisfying
(and you can probably only get away with it once or twice!)
xx