1. Your gender and age?
Male, middle-aged.
2. Do you identify yourself most as Straight? Gay/Lesbian? Bisexual?
I am straight. The perpetrators in my fantasies may not be, however, and they don't much care.
3. Do you fantasize being the rapist or the victim?
Both, though I am more often the victim, and the self-as-rapist ones are generally less extreme.
4. Age when you first started having these kinds of fantasies?
Very young. See the "
Rape scene that got you Started?" thread.
5. Do you still know what started it? (f.e. movie scene, book, story you heard etc. ...)
See previous question.
6. Have you been molested or sexually abused as a child?
No.
7. Have you ever raped someone or been raped in real life?
No.
8. How often do you fantasize about rape?
Some thought of it crosses my mind whenever I see a woman I find attractive. "Man, I wouldn't mind being tied down naked on
her bed."
9. Do you masturbate while you fantasize?
The other way around would be more accurate.
10. Do you masturbate while you read rape stories or watch rape movies?
Sometimes.
11. Do rape fantasies help you to get a faster/better orgasm while you are masturbating?
Yes.
12. Are your masturbation fantasies always about rape or do you also have vanilla fanasies?
Almost always about rape.
13. Do you more often fantasize about stranger rape or rape with someone you know?
Probably more often with strangers.
14. Do your fantasies more often involve one on one scenes or gangrape?
I'd say both more or less equally.
15.Do you always fantasize to be involved in the rape (as rapist or victim) or does it sometimes arouse you just to watch?
In my fantasies I want to be involved. I might be tied up and
forced to watch, helpless to intervene and knowing that I'll be next...
16. How important is the enjoyment of the rapist(s) for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important)
Absolutely important; they're not doing it as a favor to me.
17. How important is the suffering of the victim for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important)
With myself as the victim, very important. I want to be tortured.
With myself as the rapist, not so important.
18.What are the most common settings for your fantasies? (bedroom, outdoors, forest, a cabin, a dungeon, prison, military camp, etc.)
The ordinary household basement might be slightly more common, but it can happen anywhere.
19 What's your favorite typ of rapist (blacks, gangster, convicts, soldier, biker, pirat, KKK men, etc. ..) or victim (virgin, schoolgirl, housewife, middle aged woman, MILTF, business
woman, nun, femal POW .....)?
My rapists: All that matters is that they are sadistic, hypersexual perverts.
My victims: Girl-next-door types, lonely housewives, classmates, coworkers, that adorable checkout girl...
20. Are your fantasy scenes typically more "soft" (the victim being forced against her will/ overpowered/unable to resist without overt violence) or more brutal (include the victim being
hit/slapped/punched by the rapist)?
Myself as victim: Brutal. My rapists get off on seeing me writhe and hearing me scream and beg. I am tortured without mercy.
Myself as rapist: I want her good and scared, but my goal is to force pleasure on her whether she wants it or not.
21. What's the center of your fantasy, the sex or the humiliation and degredation?
As rapist: The sex.
As victim: Also the sex; the torture is foreplay.
22. Is it important that your fantasy scene has a convincing overpowering sequence including some struggling, slapping, screamimg etc
As victim: I can be forcibly overpowered, or taken quietly e.g. at gunpoint.
As rapist: Gunpoint, generally. My intended victim is too likely to take
me down in a struggle.
23. Do your fantasy scenes typically include convincing resistance (kicking, biting etc.) by the victim?
Kind of duplicates #22.
24. Is it important that your fantasy victim is screaming, pleading, begging etc
The begging and pleading is always stimulating, but in either of my fantasy roles, the victim is usually gagged when the screaming starts.
25. Is it important that your fantasy rapist(s) is/are degrading the victim with words ( calling her a slut, whore etc.) ?
As victim: I am called degrading things like worm, slug, fucktoy etc.
As rapist: I call my victim by her actual name, or Beauty, or some name that makes her conscious of some desirable quality about herself.
26. Do your scenes typically include a man's cum and if yes, where does it usually end up?
Everybody orgasms in my fantasies, always.
As victim: I am forced to orgasm repeatedly, sometimes inside the female rapists (they enjoy all varieties of sex a lot), sometimes into the air. It becomes painful after a few hours, especially with my genitals bound up the way they like... Male perpetrators will cum raping my ass or forcing me to suck their cocks, which I absolutely
hate, but that's rape.
As rapist: Beauty usually gets it in her pussy, and in her mouth, her ass, and between her lovely squeezable tits as well if I'm in the mood.
27. Do your scenes include anal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
As victim: Always.
As rapist: Occasionally.
28. Do your scenes include oral rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
Both roles: Occasionally.
29. Do your scenes include vaginal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
Both roles: Always.
30. Do your scenes typically include the victim having an orgasm?
Always.
31. How important is the size of the rapist(s) cock(s) cock in your fantasies?
As victim: If I absolutely
must be raped by another man, it might as well be the maximum experience.
As rapist: I consider myself satisfactoriy endowed.
32. How long does a typically rape fantasy (masturbating) session usually last?
Fifteen minutes to an hour.
33. How do you feel after such a "session"
What the hell is wrong with me... I don't want this... I just want to be hugged and loved...
That lasts about three minutes; then it's back to wishing it could have been real.
34. Do you sometimes feel some kind of guilt for your fantasies?
Wracked with guilt as a kid growing up. I've come to terms with the fantasy/reality divide in more recent years.
35. Does someone in your real life know about your fantasy?
A few people in the local BDSM community.
36. Do you know of someone in your real life having such fantasies?
See #35.
37. Have you ever enacted a rape roleplay in real life?
I've been tied up and whipped a couple of times. No sex involved there, though.
38. Do you imagine yourselve or your victim to be tied up?
Bondage is close to an absolute essential in my fantasies. Ropes, chains, straps, clamps, duct tape, barbed wire... The rapist, whether it's them or me, has other fun things to do with their hands besides keeping the struggling victim under control.
39. Are there any celebrities or pornstars playing arole in your fantasies (as rapists or victims)?
No porn stars; perhaps a few celebrities when I was a kid, but it never really was a huge element for me.
40. Are there other key elements to your fantasies that I have missed with the questions above? If so, please describe them briefly.