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1. Your gender and age?
Female and 25.
2. Do you identify yourself most as Straight? Gay/Lesbian? Bisexual?
Bisexual.
3. Do you fantasize being the rapist or the victim?
Victim.
4. Age when you first started having these kinds of fantasies?
I would say about 16 or so.
5. Do you still know what started it? (f.e. movie scene, book, story you heard etc. ...)
It started from a few things. I found stories, movies, or whatever form about men breaking in to houses, or attacking the helpless victim more, arousing then terrifying. At about the same time I found out about bdsm on the internet and it sparked my interest further.
6. Have you been molested or sexually abused as a child?
No. Though my childhood was not perfect or happy all the time the most sexual thing from it was hearing my parents through the walls. ^///^'
7. Have you ever raped someone or been raped in real life?
No.
8. How often do you fantasize about rape?
At least once a week if not once a day.
9. Do you masturbate while you fantasize?
Not every time but most.
10. Do you masturbate while you read rape stories or watch rape movies?
Yes.
11. Do rape fantasies help you to get a faster/better orgasm while you are masturbating?
Most often yes.
12. Are your masturbation fantasies always about rape or do you also have vanilla fantasies?
I wouldn't say vanilla. But they are not all about rape.
13. Do you more often fantasize about stranger rape or rape with someone you know?
Stranger rape.
14. Do your fantasies more often involve one on one scenes or gangrape?
Most often, I would say gang. But nearly as often one on one.
15.Do you always fantasize to be involved in the rape (as rapist or victim) or does it sometimes arouse you just to watch?
Involved. Even if it starts watching I end up fantasize about being pulled in to it.
16. How important is the enjoyment of the rapist(s) for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important)
Absolutely. It is the part that makes me feel most desired but also the most degraded.
17. How important is the suffering of the victim for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important)
Umm... I guess it would depend on what you mean by suffering. It feels a little flat if I don't feel like I've been degraded and used. But, not in to being beaten though.
18.What are the most common settings for your fantasies? (bedroom, outdoors, forest, a cabin, a dungeon, prison, military camp, etc.)
Outdoors. Parks seem to be common for me.
19 What's your favorite type of rapist (blacks, gangster, convicts, soldier, biker, pirate, KKK men, etc. ..) or victim (virgin, schoolgirl, housewife, middle aged woman, MILF, business woman, nun, female POW .....)?
I have two. Strong men in uniform taking what they want, or biker/rock style men.
20. Are your fantasy scenes typically more "soft" (the victim being forced against her will/ overpowered/unable to resist without overt violence) or more brutal (include the victim being hit/slapped/punched by the rapist)?
I would say soft. Against will with a little fighting but no extreme beatings.
21. What's the center of your fantasy, the sex or the humiliation and degradation?
Humiliation and degradation.
22. Is it important that your fantasy scene has a convincing overpowering sequence including some struggling, slapping, screaming etc
Yes.
23. Do your fantasy scenes typically include convincing resistance (kicking, biting etc.) by the victim?
Most often.
24. Is it important that your fantasy victim is screaming, pleading, begging etc
See above hehe.
25. Is it important that your fantasy rapist(s) is/are degrading the victim with words ( calling her a slut, whore etc.) ?
Absolutely.
26. Do your scenes typically include a man's cum and if yes, where does it usually end up?
Yes. And usually both internally and externally. So, on or in me in some way shape or form. ^///^'
27. Do your scenes include anal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
Often.
28. Do your scenes include oral rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
Often.
29. Do your scenes include vaginal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
Often.
30. Do your scenes typically include the victim having an orgasm?
Yes.
31. How important is the size of the rapist(s) cock(s) cock in your fantasies?
Important, but not most important.
32. How long does a typically rape fantasy (masturbating) session usually last?
At least half an hour.
33. How do you feel after such a "session".
Fuzzy, warm, dirty, released.
34. Do you sometimes feel some kind of guilt for your fantasies?
Sometimes.
35. Does someone in your real life know about your fantasy?
No.
36. Do you know of someone in your real life having such fantasies?
No.
37. Have you ever enacted a rape role-play in real life?
No.
38. Do you imagine yourself or your victim to be tied up?
Myself.
39. Are there any celebrities or porn stars playing a role in your fantasies (as rapists or victims)?
Nope.
40. Are there other key elements to your fantasies that I have missed with the questions above? If so, please describe them briefly.
Most commonly my fantasy rapist(s) will use my own clothing to trip me or bind me. Gag me with panties or leave shorts around my thighs as they use belts for straps before tearing or cutting away any clothing in the way.