Absolutely. When I was doing some fairly intense bondage/discipline playing a few years ago I would regularly experience just exactly what you describe. I agree that it has to do with loss of control. It is recognized in that community (called "subdrop") and the domme I was playing with would always make sure I was ok.
There are no shortcuts except to have someone physically around who is willing to take all the crap you'll likely dish out. I've run the entire gamut from tears to violence.
The important thing is to take care of yourself. You can seriously mess up your psyche if you don't and find yourself fearful, depressed or angry for weeks. Find someone who understands and go to him/her or have them come to you.
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Although the most incisive judges of the witches and even the witches themselves
were convinced of the guilt of witchcraft, this guilt nevertheless did not exist.
Thus it is with all guilt.
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