I guess, when I first started having rape thoughts I didn't fully understand because I was so young. So when I thought about them I would only think about the things that intrigued me, like images of women being tied up or held captive. As I grew up my fantasies naturally evolved to rape. I guess as time went on I would see a woman I really wanted and my fantasy went from just raping her once to keeping her as a sex slave. So yeah, I guess it has taken a life of its own in a way.
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