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Old 05-26-2013, 11:32 AM   #22
Afox
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1. Your gender and age?
35 Female

2. Do you identify yourself most as Straight? Gay/Lesbian? Bisexual?
Lesbian

3. Do you fantasize being the rapist or the victim?
Victim with both mena nd women but not at the same time.

4. Age when you first started having these kinds of fantasies?
I think I was around 9

5. Do you still know what started it? (f.e. movie scene, book, story you heard etc. ...)
Kind of. When I was a young, around 8 or 9 I was afraid of Vampires. So to alleviate that fear I would imagine them coming into my room and having sex with me rather than killing me. It turned fear into arousal so I think that’s why I associate fear, violence, and danger with sex. I also became extremely aroused from a rape scene in a movie called Bad Boys with Sean Penn. It was the first time I had seen anything like that and wow it turned me on something fierce.

6. Have you been molested or sexually abused as a child?
Yes

7. Have you ever raped someone or been raped in real life?
I’m not sure. I have been so drunk that I don’t remember having sex with someone but quite obviously did. I hear that is considered rape of sorts. I have also had Role Play sessions get a little out of hand and once my lover insisted on having sex when I really didn’t want to, but did anyway. I hear that is also considered rape but all of these things were my fault and in my control (at least at first) so is it really rape?

8. How often do you fantasize about rape?
I have cycles where it’s all I think about all day for weeks then I’ll go a long time without any fantasies or sexual feelings at all.

9. Do you masturbate while you fantasize?
If I can. That is to say if I’m alone and not in public when the fantasies take place

10. Do you masturbate while you read rape stories or watch rape movies?
Yes

11. Do rape fantasies help you to get a faster/better orgasm while you are masturbating?
I don’t know, I have never done it without a rape fantasy

12. Are your masturbation fantasies always about rape or do you also have vanilla fanasies?
yes always rape

13. Do you more often fantasize about stranger rape or rape with someone you know?
Stranger most of the time, if not then someone I see in passing.

14. Do your fantasies more often involve one on one scenes or gangrape? More often gangrape about 80/20 gang and one on one

15.Do you always fantasize to be involved in the rape (as rapist or victim) or does it sometimes arouse you just to watch?
I always want to be involved as the victim but I do have this one odd fantasy about watching. I fantasize about finding a home video of an actual rape.

16. How important is the enjoyment of the rapist(s) for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important)
Absolutely important

17. How important is the suffering of the victim for your fantasy (Absolutely important, very important, not so important)
Not so much

18.What are the most common settings for your fantasies? (bedroom, outdoors, forest, a cabin, a dungeon, prison, military camp, etc.)
There are too many to count but I tend to like dirty dingy places like alleys and warehouses, prison cell is a good one

19 What's your favorite typ of rapist (blacks, gangster, convicts, soldier, biker, pirat, KKK men, etc. ..) or victim (virgin, schoolgirl, housewife, middle aged woman, MILTF, business woman, nun, femal POW .....)?
Soldiers, street gangs, ancient warriors like Romans, Spartans, Barbarians

20. Are your fantasy scenes typically more "soft" (the victim being forced against her will/ overpowered/unable to resist without overt violence) or more brutal (include the victim being hit/slapped/punched by the rapist)?
Kind of in between more towards Soft

21. What's the center of your fantasy, the sex or the humiliation and degredation?
Sex

22. Is it important that your fantasy scene has a convincing overpowering sequence including some struggling, slapping, screamimg etc
Yes

23. Do your fantasy scenes typically include convincing resistance (kicking, biting etc.) by the victim?
No not really

24. Is it important that your fantasy victim is screaming, pleading, begging etc sort of, screaming yes, pleading and begging not so much

25. Is it important that your fantasy rapist(s) is/are degrading the victim with words ( calling her a slut, whore etc.) ?
It doesn’t matter either way, I only care about he physical aspects. Words wouldn’t make or break anything unless they were just completely goofy or gross

26. Do your scenes typically include a man's cum and if yes, where does it usually end up?
Inside either anal or vaginal.

27. Do your scenes include anal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
Oh yes

28. Do your scenes include oral rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
No I find oral sex to be too complacent.

29. Do your scenes include vaginal rape? (Always, Often, Occasionally, Rarely, Never)
Oh yes

30. Do your scenes typically include the victim having an orgasm?
No not at all, again, too complacent

31. How important is the size of the rapist(s) cock(s) cock in your fantasies? Not that much but a tiny penis would be too comical to be sexy. Sometimes a huge one can add to the pain factor which only enhances things

32. How long does a typically rape fantasy (masturbating) session usually last?
It could go on for an hour or more but usually about 20 minutes

33. How do you feel after such a "session" I have no emotions only physical sensations such as relief, racing heart and tingly and sometimes hungry

34. Do you sometimes feel some kind of guilt for your fantasies?
Not anymore but I do feel a strong need to keep them secret

35. Does someone in your real life know about your fantasy?
No other than the anonymous hook ups for Role Play

36. Do you know of someone in your real life having such fantasies?
No same as above

37. Have you ever enacted a rape roleplay in real life?
Yes many times

38. Do you imagine yourselve or your victim to be tied up?
Sometimes

39. Are there any celebrities or pornstars playing a role in your fantasies (as rapists or victims)?
I like hunky action heroes like Vin Diesel Arnold Swartzeneger as Conan but thats more of a type rather than a particular person.

40. Are there other key elements to your fantasies that I have missed with the questions above? If so, please describe them briefly.
No but this survey was fun and I’m glad to see others with similar interests so I don’t feel so much like a freak
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