I used to feel great shame about my rape fetish. Which is why I, too, find this board so therapeutic. The only time you will hear rape talked about so openly is on the evening news, when another offender is sent to prison, and everyone feels better. So for years, the only exposure I had to the subject was rape = prison. I felt like a criminal without ever harming another person.
With this board, however, I've discovered a like-minded community of what I would consider completely normal, healthy, sexual beings, acting upon their desires in a responsible fashion. A far cry from the imprisoned rapists that couldn't control their actions.
I no longer feel guilty. The person I have become is not as much dictated by my thoughts as by my actions. I have chosen a way to fulfill my fantasies without harming anyone in the process. I actually feel rather proud about how I've handled what was an awkward set of feelings from when I was an adolescent.
And just bought an external hard drive, so no intentions of deleting my porn collection.
