Many times i've felt disgusted with myself for getting off on rape, in fact i was thinking of posting a thread just like this but you have saved me the trouble.
It's something i'm not proud of, but it's how my mind is wired and i suppose as long as i can separate fantasy from reality then there is no harm. When i was much younger and was only getting introduced to the idea of rape fantasy being my fetish, i was always very interested in REAL rape stories. I quickly learned that rape is a heinous crime, and i am always sickened to hear real stories.
Like many i have a fairly extensive collection of porn, and on a few occasions i have deleted it out of guilt. It wouldn't surprise me if i do it again. The jury is still out in my mind as to whether by downloading rape porn i'm vindicating rape or just scratching my itch.
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